Ne Volez Pas Musique

6.30 and i WILL do the following:

NO COMPUTER
NO TV
NO NAPS
NO FRIED FOOD
STUDYSTUDYSTUDY
SAVE MONEY WHICH MEANS BRINGING FOOD TO SCHOOL
NO GOING OUTS
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.
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On and on. like cheeseburger to big mac.. MMmmmm..

I am a fighter and I
(I'm a fighter)
I ain't gonna stop
(I ain't gonna stop)
There is no turning back
I've had enough

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter





i miss my dad and mum and ahma. havent seen them for a week. Holidays seem fun doesn't it :/

these few days seem to be thinking way too much, becoming way too lazy. seems like i put all my worries behind by just sleeping.Blame me for not spending enough time with God. well, the month's ending, nights are getting longer. mid-years syf...

plans maybe,
think about it later or not.

ho-humm...


suddenly occur to me that i need you to just be there. make me feel myself again. maybe i havent discovered how much i need God yet. Time just keep going doesnt it...

God.

I dont know much Him. willing to learn. maybe is not the question.

just take a little nap?
when will i finally feel secure..

Glasgow Love Theme brings tears to my eyes honestly. I miss my parents. How i miss them. I miss my pendant. I miss Gods deep presence in me. I miss talking to people that really understands me...

maybe i should just take a nap, what if i wont wake up.

Insecurity threatens my confused state of mind, leaving traces of blank stares and rather loud tappings of the keys of the keyboard.haha ..

no more music. I do need a nap. First thing after that. read Bible stuff.



); Just forget it.



x) missed that quixotic side of me.



Damn. My last curse for the month i promise.

Don't worry baby
You're gonna be just fine

well all four of us set on the dining table. It was Silent.

I told them the exciting news. They made fun. They mocked and insulted. Silence grew.




' Don't look back, just keep on running. '



it was hard catching my breath. Ambivience surged forward, surrounded the perpetual silence.

And they left. Silence dissipated. My throat was sore and my heart was trembling. The effect was magnified with the chill of the wind creeping up my skin, spreading like a virus. I coughed and I choked.

But,I had lost the battle.

... Again left unappreciated.




















I hated all four of them. Just for one day. Just for this minute.

This goes out to her:

The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother. Just have faith my dear! ((:

This goes out to me:

Don't ever look back and wonder 'what if'. You've got a dream, right? And if you've got the plan, so what are you waiting for?



aims for the month:
1) new haircut
2( contacts
3) jog regularly
4( Sing HIS praises
5) Mug hard HARD
6( practise hard for piano/flute
7) Get a corgi?
8( Read chinese and english book alternatively
9) save money
10( Have faith in God, cause miracles are bound to happen!


You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock,
You know your better than this.

-JIA YOU!-

well, its unavoidable, but, yet remarkable.

me. (:

Things that happened: Everything

i will be leaving. Goodbye.

things that happened:

everything.

but i will be leaving.

this especially goes out to Evelyn for what happened today:

' THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! I LOVE YA! EVELYN ROCKS A MILLION!! '

except that i still owe her money$$$. oh man.. must stop wasting money liao. but instead go save money...dunno whether i should go for buffet leh..thinkthink..treating people is like expensive. Now i am like dead broke. Soo yah..

anyway..thanx for the earings. THEY ROCK! the shirt: Really never would have bought it if you hadn't suggest it to me. Yoshinoya: nice food lah( but latergot stomach ache)

yupyup, soo thanks. lovelovelovelove<3

okok. soo looking forward to my birthdday..but must miss band lah. it falls on my birthday, But i got reason i think..only a day spent with parents? (but weekend soo busy)..soo im not too sure. Just pray to God For a Miracle.

(pray for Daphne who is currently injured)

hmm..okok.. soo maybe i got a few ideas of gifts brewing on my head.

BREW//

1) CONTACTS!!
-achieved if it is a birthday present from someone. Me paying like half or something.
2) Cool funky short hair
-maybe shoulder length but definately a change in fringe.. Anything that suits me
3) HEELS!!
- just nice/okay lah type of shoes. but like one in kovan. Bout 40. But neh, Bad bargaain! HAAHA
4) Definate clear of all HORRIBLE pimples
- will consult somt pharmicist, but also cannot be lazy lah
5) good results for e maths and social studies.. BETTER start mugging now. Or else too late.. Must impress parents to get presents lah.
6)GET WHITER!!!
-that means no going out to super hot places, And buying cream..(dont think will work also lah)

Actually nothing much..All i want is just a hug. REally. A hug from anyone and a wish to me- happy birthday- would be great. Just A GREAT BIG BEAR HUG! Literally . I like those, cos you can really feel the love tingling all over you. I MEAN IT!

i just want to feel loved. That can also mean the best present.
But i still want those above lah..Hehe.



just a thought:
- mr aw: should learn to hear complaints and take it into account. Not Rush.
- mr tan: getting abit too drama. Not too much. Just enough is already good enough. Can feel awakened.
-ms liu: be more strict. And talk louder. Also listen to complaints.
-mdm sarifah : NEVER MATCH AND MATCH. seriously out of fashion.
-chem teacher : up till now forget your name. BUT PLEASE CAN YOU HAVE THE MORE ENTU face. and explain!!
-physics: good and funny teacher. But maybe abit more of easier exercises to get our basics
-history: WHERE ARE YOU!!!???!!!
-SS: relac abit lah. Actually we are good students. But just not too much pressure lah

thats about all.
yesterday professer came. His playing rox. Im damn jealous. But i want him to go talent scout us leh. THEN WE CAN GO AUUZIE OR WHATEVER! haha.lmao

ohyah! MY CHEMISTRY TEST!

I Got alot of things to comment. But i think-forget it lah-
fyi im supposed to get 26!!!

anyway- nothing to comment!! but yah-


Love is actually all around.

:)

I am literally being stalked by some freaky guy from the fillipines.


OHMY! he like keep smsing me, calling me. I don't even dare to answer the phone. Now i know i must never talk to strangers. Especially overseas people. I am soo freaked out! i'm going insane ! AHHH!!! what is the world coming to..????

anyways, I came back from school like on wednesday sia, sat down and waited. Then got this lady who sat beside me. Believe it or not, She actaully shoved my bag and sat her seat comfortably. i mean. WTH! on that very day i wrote on my journal writing on how Singaporeans get an 'F' for courtesy.

Somemore on thursday, i went up to the bus and wait for jong lian in front ..then suddenly the doors closed behind me and my bag got stuck! AHHH! then the stupid uncle bus driver just stood there..dont care lidat. ARGH! finally after he noiced his stupid mistake, i fel soo embarassed lor. Everybody looking at me. Wahlau! i'm am like soo sick lor! ARGH!!Now i have proven my point, i feel soo Angry and retarded. Singaporeans typically DO deserve a big fat F9 for that. Or mayb even a negative A1!!

I believe i am not the minority of singaporeans UNLIKE them.

Damn.

finish reading 'authobiography of a one-year-old'. It is a great book to begin with. Not too difficult to comprehend. But full of laughter, excitement and joy all book round. Haha.

fist week of the holiday, homework homework homework. PLease lah! first day already must hand up. Bleh. But it does prove that we are unlike primary school kids anymore.

oh man. Miss the good ol' days.
Hhe. can't rmb what happened this week. But i am like more study and concerntrate in class. YAY! then friday went swimming with evelynand yah! it was hot. I was tanned man. Haha. But yup. i think me and evlyn made a pact to have badminton and swimming alternatly this friday. Haha. Invite more friends too .. then thought of taking of dancing class. Seriously i want lor..haha

still considering whether i should join the sws. Don't know why i should'nt come..dunoo lah..
Will stop for now, 22 more days before my birthday. Must save up for treat yah! still pondering..


prayin for a miracle! waiting soo long...really want a makeover. My hair lah. I also want to be more risky, more sociable. So yah! then maybe i shouldnt be afraid. I really shouldnt. Why should I. I will do some self-reflection

judicious--> sensible.
Comment yah! and i will tag yours! yay!

Hamlet reckoned that rest is silence.

-fin-

First day kana scolded by malvin lim. Yahayh! i neve do homework lah! first day of school already soo jialaht.bleh. Even evelyn class is good lor. Never do also dont need stay back. Haha.

uhm. stayed back later. Damn. Rushing to finish homework. Then go home. Thinking. Self-reflection.

Today morning is stupid lor
the clock was like siao lor. Nobody told me the clock was half an hour late. Damn. I woke up. Then got up. Look at time. 5.15a.m.. thought :
-siao maid wake me up soo early-

then wash up. sis leave at 6pm. thought:
-siao leave soo early-

then dad left at 6.15
-siao soo early for what..-

then i wait ..thought:

-hw come soo bright? only 6.30-
then take own sweet time..wait the maid say:
- u will be late!-

then i told her still early wad. Then i realized clock spoil. Hahaa.lamo.
then alreay 7.05
haha late..bus pretty fast lah.

whole day lesson. Damn tired. Sleepy. Bored.Haaha. fa zhan.

yup.
first day of my nightmare. boogey man will come tonight.

BOOGEY_BOOGEY_BOOGEY!!!

haha
sunday missed church. damn tired, then somemore soo much homework. Chiong..
went to band. Stupid green line soo long. Lame. Played FFX. Damn hard lor. Soo many flats. All the running notes. I was soo weird.
Then sandy was sick. and i had to play. I was kinda afraid. Don't know why. I crumpled up. Yah. maybe its tze huans flute or something ( not xi guan). It was pretty obvious. Oh man.

Then realized Evelyn's clarinet section talktalktalk. like quite close leh. flute is like damn quiet lor. Sad sia. Then only our second day. Evelyn was like soo close to damn. Like known them for dunno how long,. I was like sad. Wished that flute also lidat. ARGH! wwho ask me never ask for their number or msn. ARGH! haha. Cos i communicate better in msn then verbally. I think. Dunno lah

NEED OPINIONS!!!

Don't know why i keep thinking bout my hair when it is ok lor. HAaha. But i want contacts. So im gonna try to do well in my upcoming test and birthday!!! AHHHH!!! need..need..contacts .hahaha.

Contacts man! CONTACTS MAN! mayb can pei evelyn go check optimist. Check my degree. Haha. At least contacts can train me to not be lazy. Yup. Soo yah. not only want to look good, but have self-discipline. Yup!!


I love myself- planning to finish all my homework EXCEPT chinese today sia!
yupyup
lahlahlah. Need all the support from everybody. My friends, family and God!
haha. corrective actions to improve myself.
must call the bedazzle acting crap and the dance lesson. Join sheilas class too yah..haha
yup. All the best to me!

I LOVE YA WEN!

i love others to lah! haha. Mayb every week name one. YAY!!

updating my profile! go read sia!i type with my precious delicate amazing talented fingers of mine. Thank God! Yepyep. mayb i may join charis in chem class.ask her first.

miracles to happen:
1) call bedazzled (acting class)
2) call dancing class
3) join sheilas class
4) more info on chem lesson
5) do well in upcoming tests
6) save money
7) join in the SWSYB and bring home scores
8) ask seniors for msn and number
9) Fall in Love
10) make more friends/good friends
11) wonderful birthday

_some not really miracles_

maybe singlehood rocks?!? haha/ living such a fragile life


Love yahs!